Hi again. :)
I sort of disappeared again for a while. Well, just from here. I've been posting on my husbands blog, as we walk through the valleys and peaks on his cancer journey. It's been long, and full of stress and tears and fears, but that's part of what makes us stronger, right?
I mentioned in earlier posts about how much I love the early morning hours of the day. I also love the late evening hours. It must just be the times when it's quiet for me, inside and out. When there are no demands on my time, and not many noises to distract my thinking. I think a lot. :)
Some nights I can sense how tired I am, yet I find myself being the toddler fighting to stay awake through a nap, so afraid I'll miss something important. It's mostly, though, that the world around me is quiet, and I really need the quiet. Not just to sleep in, but to be in.
I am overdue for a walk in the woods to see the beauty of nature, or sitting at the lakeshore watching the sun rise as the water laps at the shore, or driving leisurely in the country with the fresh breeze washing over me. I need these things. They are part of the way God programmed me to function. Work, recharge, work, recharge. Nature is my recharge. And I feel the need to plug in... soon.
I listen to music in the late hours some days. I find my emotional life expressed from one to the next, and I'm amazed at the ranges I find myself running through. Some days. Tonight is different. I am fighting to stay awake, when I should be sleeping.
I'm going to give in. I've fallen asleep at least 5 times already typing this little bit... It's time, and morning will be here soon enough. There is a crisp, cool, soft breeze coming in our windows tonight. I want to breathe it in for a while.
Please forgive any typos or confusing thought patterns. It all makes sense to me right now, but that doesn't mean much. ;)
Goodnight... ♥
Be Blessed...
Cheri ♥
