I disappeared for a little bit. Not on purpose, but life gets busier than you expect it to be sometimes. It starts turning in different directions that you find you have no control over. And when that happens, in the long run, you know it's for good. But that doesn't make the journey any easier.
Some people who are dear to my heart are moving away... My daughter and her family. I find myself looking at them deeply, intensely, studying every feature. I am trying to absorb all the smiles that make me smile, and the feel of their soft touch. I want to remember the smell of their skin, and the gleam in their eyes. I need to be so saturated with them that I can recall the memories all in an instant when I close my eyes... when I miss them so badly that my heart hurts. I am staying happy and positive, but it's so hard to hold back the tears... they flow freely when I'm in the quiet.
Infectious laughter. Pure joyful laughter. That's what will get me through. It's what my daughter is filled with. And her daughters, too. They can lift my burdens and carry me to happy places with the rejoicing in their voices. I can actually see the joy on their faces and the love in their eyes, and I feel the warmth of honest love in their touch. What a blessing, what a legacy, to leave. I want to be a person like that...
Cheri ♥
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